Lesley Yalen
POEM 1
A ship drifts from nineteen seventy-six
Once they were right on top of each other
The present and the only, the story, the historical
Were identical, coincident
The launch was the slip.
Now a bay or a sound is widely known
Listen. It’s not that I want to live forever
It’s that I want to have lived the whole time
From the beginning
To know where is the beginning
Or I am quite behind and so ignorant
And wrong about many things.
I can almost see over my mother to the other present
They call the past. I don’t like that color, the color
Of an old pink war that somebody really pursued
An old pink purse someone left in a wardrobe.
In the ship’s direction, but not at the ship’s pace
That’s what it was like
Watching a racehorse
Then watching two
Something pulls ahead
The wrong horse pulls ahead
Is there a name for this vertiginous experience?
POEM 2
That one can be mad at one’s self is higher order thinking
That one can write about being mad at one’s self
That one can tire of one’s self or please or blank with one’s self
What do other life forms do? We have accomplished a great deal.
A long truck trying to make a left—I have my doubts about
The thrashing tail, the reptilian precision of country road in morning light
Frightening, that beauty
That one’s filter doesn’t filter it out
File under quaint, fleeting, fake,
Dying, passing, polluted, blink
That one’s aesthetics are not more advanced
Your body is the Michigan of Lakes, the
Tolstoy of promises, the Jew of superheroes
It’s absolutely wonderful, gazing out the window
Reflected in my OS X.
The ongoing sex, sex feelings people love to write about
Are as predictable as the fiery leaves in this month
Ending up in this mouth
How advanced will an other life form be?
Will it be able to convey itself to us?
Science seems to really want this, science the vulnerable
Shaking everything—to write is science, to feel is
As far as we’ve traveled
We just keep penetrating the same old
I’ve been invited to a wedding/funeral in Minnesota
And so have you, I mean they all are
Every day
Joined and rent, loved and lost
Fucked and fucked in the frosty plain
One can still not see from here
One can not with the naked ear hear them shouting
In Minnesota
So what, there is no meaning in what we are doing?
There is only meaning in what we are doing?
I do everything twice
I do everything at least twice
